It would be nice to write a really inspiring post about channeling motivation and overcoming adversity and blah blah hard work dedication blah blah. But I wrote this post last night while drinking my second very generously poured glass of wine and feeling quite thankful for the Tylenol 3 pain relief that was coursing through my body combatting my debilitating period cramps.
So a maybe-too-honest, rambling sort of post it is.
As you might have noticed by now, I tend to write more structured articles like Best Drugstore Dry Shampoos and introspective pieces like An Ode to Quitting. And as much as I love those, I do think it’s good to mix up my writing style once in a while and just breathe a little bit. Breathe = ramble? Perhaps. But oftentimes my favourite bloggers are those who just talk about what’s going on in their lives and don’t always write the perfect-pitch-im-a-serious-writer kind of post.
So here I am, doing the stream-of-consciousness thing, aided by tres copas de vino tinto. I think that’s Spanish for three glasses of red wine (yes I'm already on my third) but I am much too lazy to look it up online. Oh yeah I started Spanish lessons last week which are obviously going muy bien and clearly I have learned the most important phrases for my upcoming trip -- can I have a glass of wine and where is the bathroom? #priorities
Seriously though, I’m enjoying being a student again and actually learning something new during my free time. I felt stagnated at my previous job so this is quite a refreshing change. Plus with our move to the US after Central America, these lessons will hopefully be very useful. When I was younger I learned French from elementary to high school and this foundation has been so helpful as I’m attempting to learn Spanish.
On a different note, this whole blogging thing has been a lot harder than I thought. All the advice I read tells new bloggers to pick a niche and stay with it. Fashion? Too broad. What type of fashion? Travel writer? Lifestyle blogger? “Narrow it down,” they say. What if I want to write about all three? A major faux-pas I suppose.
At the end of the day though, people do what they want to do. Like if I really truly wanted to wake up and work out every day, take advantage of my flexibility, make our house perfectly sparkling clean all the time, be an amazing dinner-making housewife, wouldn’t I be doing it? Instead it’s more like this.
I have no willpower apparently.
But in terms of blogging, why do I feel this trepidation? I have an editorial calendar full of ideas, a list of contacts who I’d like to reach out to, and new photo editing software to master. To be completely forthcoming, I also have some advertising inquiries to respond to and I just don’t know what to say. Do I want to open up my blog up to sponsorship? Am I ready for that yet? That is what big bloggers do, and yes if I’m being completely honest I do want to make it as a blogger. Sometimes I think that a part of my hesitation ironically comes from wanting to excel wholeheartedly in this online blogging and writing world. So what is it that’s holding me back?
I feel like I might be my own biggest obstacle in blogland. Is it possible for me to write thought-provoking posts that connect and engage with readers on a regular basis? Can I keep this up while I’m travelling? Should I wait until I’m settled in the States? Perfectionism can be crippling.
Oy vey this post is getting much heavier than I intended. I’m at a loss of how to wrap this up so I suppose I’ll leave with this -- onwards and upwards.
I’m off to pour myself another glass.